Striving to Live

WHAAA?!

Thu, 04 Aug 2011 20:10:00 -0400

Danggggg!!! it has literally almost been 4 months since I’ve updated this thing. Not that there hasn’t been much going on…well since April I have graduated, gone home to Guam, gone to Korea, moved to LA, and started a new job. I feel like I’ve grown up a lot in the last 3 months or so.

This week has been a great joy. It’s awesome to see some of my college buddies. It seems like there’s a flood of them coming in and for that I am forever grateful.

Hahn came in last Friday. I took him around a little bit, and I must admit it was nice having some company in my house. Hahn came up with me to SF; he played while I was training for work. We met up with Jon and had dinner. Hahn left a day early, and training ended early for me today so I met up with Jason! Its amazing how we seem to pick up right where we left off, and we know each one of us is going through.

I have to say the transition process has been hard. I’ve yet to find a good church, but I’m still hopping around. My coworkers are awesome, but I still need to find some more friends who won’t be leaving at the end of summer, which is basically all of my friends haha. The amazing thing is right when I started to feel a little bit lonely here in LA by myself, a flood of my friends started coming in to LA. Hahn came, I saw Jon and Jason. Plus Garth is going to be coming in tonight! Then Dongo and Kevin will be here on Monday! It really is amazing how much seeing friends brings joy. I don’t think you really realize that until you’ve been away from them for a while.

I have a pretty big place all furnished and equipped with a huge TV and speedy internet. If anyone would like to visit…call me! I swear I’ll be a better host than Soo. HAHA.

More updates about Cali and the job later. I don’t want this post getting too long.

Amazing

Wed, 20 Apr 2011 00:57:00 -0400

This morning, this was the first thing that came to mind.

It’s crazy how we, or rather I, so easily forget the magnitude of Christ’s death and His WILLINGNESS to die. It really is unfathomable that GOD would become a human being to die for such lowly beings as us.

He could have just been like “Peace out, you lowly humans. I’m going Home to Glory.” But no, that was never the case; rather He was selfless and loving enough to give up His one, perfect life so that we may have ours in Heaven. Crazy.

If I’d been the one I would not have been that strong.

I wonder what it would have been like had He not died, but then again that’s something I should never wonder nor have to wonder.

The definition of selflessness and unconditional love.

Encouraged

Tue, 12 Apr 2011 12:14:00 -0400

Monday night at 1 AM, I was at the West 4th Street ACE station. I was waiting for my train sitting on one of the benches and looked over at the lady sitting next to me and glanced at her phone. She was very focused on her phone; curious, I looked down to see what she was so consumed by. I was half shocked and half excited. I was expecting her to be playing some game or reading some article, but it was neither. She was reading Ruth. At that moment, I wanted to shout and yell out of encouragement and joy. I really wanted to talk to her about what she was reading and talk about Christianity in the city, but just the fact that she was reading the Bible was encouragement enough. It’s awesome to see how God works even in the most lonely, jaded city of New York.

It’s funny how God sometimes randomly decides to make our days.

Has to be two of the most amazing voices I’ve heard. Who...

Fri, 08 Apr 2011 23:07:00 -0400

Has to be two of the most amazing voices I’ve heard.
Who needs Baileys Irish Cream or Guinness when you’ve got Damien Rice and Lisa Hannigan?

Old school song… 가족 (Family) 밤 늦은 길을 걸어서지친 하루를 되돌아오면언제나 나를...

Mon, 28 Mar 2011 22:46:00 -0400

Old school song…

가족 (Family)

밤 늦은 길을 걸어서
지친 하루를 되돌아오면

언제나 나를 맞는
깊은 어둠과 고요히 잠든 가족들

때로는 짐이 되기도 했었죠
많은 기대와 실망땜에

늘 곁에 있으니
늘 벗어나고도 싶고
어떻해야 내가 부모님의 맘에 들수가 있을지 모르고

사랑하는 나의 마음들을 그냥 말하고 싶지만
어색하기만 하죠

힘겨운 하루를 보낸
내 가족들의 낮은 숨소리엔
어린 날 보살펴주던 내 누이의
고마운 추억이 있죠

가족이어도 할 수 없는 얘기
따로 돌아누운 외로움이 슬프기만 해요
아무 이유도 없는데
심술궂게 굴던 나를 위해 항상 참아주던 나의 형제들

사랑하는 나의 마음들을
그냥 말하고 싶지만
어색하기만 하죠

힘이 들어 쉬어가고 싶을때면
나의 위로가 될
그때의 짐 이제의 힘이 된

고마운 사람들

어떻해야 내가 부모님의 맘에 들수가 있을지 모르고

사랑하는 나의 마음들을 그냥 말하고 싶지만
어색하기만 하죠

사랑해요 우리 고마워요 모두 지금껏 날 지켜준 사랑

행복해야 해요 아픔 없는 곳에 영원히 함께여야 해요.

Fat Kid Syndrome

Sat, 19 Mar 2011 03:45:00 -0400

I frustrate myself sometimes. At times, I spend a good hour just contemplating things over and over in my head before I sleep, namely people that I like. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not like this happens a lot…but it does. I can count maybe three times that I’ve actually liked someone to the point where I have to contemplate it before I sleep in college. Of all those three times, I’ve never actually done anything about it. I’m such a coward. I wish that I could have the kind of courage that I have in other areas with girls.

My friend explained it to me this way…

“You have fat kid syndrome.”

You see I was a porker growing up…haha, and I compensated my fatty appearance with my friendly personality. (I also tried my hand in athletics) With that compensation, I naturally lacked any confidence with girls. I would just be nice to them, especially if I liked them, and expected magic to happen and BOOOM! they would like me back. (**Disclaimer* Girls, please don’t think that I like you if I’m nice to you (I don’t think that’s much of a problem, but I thought I’d say it anyways) If I’m mean to you well…**) OH HOW I WAS WRONG. Currently, I’m one for like ten. That’s including the girls I’ve liked in middle school, high school, and college. That’s pretty shitty if you ask me.

I have lost a lot of my weight, but I think I still lack that confidence with the girls who in my head are definitely on a higher “hot”/attractive scale than I am. In my head I’m still the fat little kid who couldn’t see his toes (yes, I was that fat O_o), and I still carry on with my ways…

WHAT IF SHE DOESN’T LIKE ME?

OHHH REJECTION HURTS!

I DON’T WANT TO BE JUDGED!

WHAT IS GOING TO BECOME OF THE FRIENDSHIP?!

But mostly just,

WHAT IF SHE DOESN’T LIKE MEEEE????? WAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH! x 222093840980980. (yes, multiplied by, for those of you who suck at math)

I need to stop being a baby…

If you were a fat kid growing up like my post…ahhahaha

I took some Dalai Lama test on stumbleupon…here are the results…pretty great. 1-st...

Tue, 22 Feb 2011 02:30:00 -0500

I took some Dalai Lama test on stumbleupon…here are the results…pretty great.

1-st question. Priorities in your life:

1: PRIDE
2: FAMILY
3: CAREER
4: LOVE
5: MONEY

2-nd question:

Friendly implies your own personality.
Despicable implies personality of your partner.
Gross implies the personality of your enemies
Unnecessary- It is how you interpret sex.
Beautiful implies your own life.

3-rd question:

Bo Hwa - Someone you will never forget.
Dad - Someone you consider your true friend.
Mom - Someone that you really love.
Garth - Your twin soul.
Min Young - Someone that you will remember for the rest of your life.

You have to send this test to as many persons as your favorite number (33) and your wish will come true on the day that you recorded (Friday).

That second part is kind of ridiculous…I seriously hope that my partner is not despicable…

Part about the people is pretty awesome too.

Pretty cool nonetheless…I’m not sending this to 33 people though…haha

http://www.wordofmouthexperiment.com/dedpyhto/tests/tibetian/index.htm

Props to my sister for showing me this. I hope I can do the same...

Wed, 02 Feb 2011 20:06:00 -0500

Props to my sister for showing me this. I hope I can do the same when I get a daughter if when I get married.

Home is wherever I’m with you.

Man, its been quite the 3 and half years here in NYC. I know it’s still the beginning of my...

Wed, 02 Feb 2011 00:05:00 -0500

Man, its been quite the 3 and half years here in NYC. I know it’s still the beginning of my last semester, but thoughts of leaving once I finish here have been lingering. People have always told me that they make their best friends in college. I have made some great friends here who I know I will always keep close to my heart, but I always imagined that college would be a place where I made friends with everyone that I want to. I’ve learned that it’s not the case.

A couple years back my sister told me that they had done this study about people and their relationships with others. They concluded that at the end of people’s lives, they are left with no friends. They weed out their friends until they are only left with their family, ones who they truly care about. I’m at the point where I’m torn between getting to know people better or just settling and strengthening the bonds that I already have. I really can’t decide.

Maybe it’s time for some weeding out…

Great movie with some witty moments and altogether a great...

Sat, 29 Jan 2011 17:07:46 -0500

Great movie with some witty moments and altogether a great message.

He not busy being born is busy dying…

Update?

Sat, 22 Jan 2011 18:14:46 -0500

It truly has been a while since I last posted. I took my trip out to California. I am really ecstatic to be working there. My office is literally 3 blocks from the bay.

I did try some In n’ Out; I must say it is very delicious, but it does not compare to Shake Shack. I am not bias at all as I will be moving to California. Haha.

I traveled 3,760 miles by car over the break in a matter of 5 days. America is HUGE! It was fun getting with the bros and doing a little (big) trip.

I hate surgery. I had a meniscectomy two days ago. It wasn’t as bad as my ACL surgery, but painful nonetheless. I think my tolerance for pain on my knee has increased after that ACL surgery. I remember just counting the hours before I could pop more pills, but this time around I’m not taking as many…therefore not being loopy and nauseous. Maybe I should really consider a new hobby other than BBALL like the lady taking my X-ray said, but I can’t.

I love Saturdays. You have the EPL going so I can watch some top notch football. Plus, as an added bonus it’s the Asian Cup. Some good quality national team football as well. It has been 51 years since Korea won the Asian Cup. I want Park Ji Sung to win one; he deserves it. 아자아자 화이팅!

School starts on Monday. My last official semester in college. Let’s make the most of it.

Land that Grounds Me

Thu, 23 Dec 2010 04:06:58 -0500

Oh wind, won’t you sweep me up into the sky
So I can get a better look at this life of mine
And pick me up and twist me around
So I can see everything around me now

Oh, won’t you embrace me?
Oh, won’t you embrace me?
Oh, won’t you embrace me, me?
Oh, won’t you embrace me?

Oh river, won’t you take me out into the sea
So I can get a good look back at the land that grounds me
And then a bit more further out
So I can feel alone much more than I have these days

Oh, then won’t you embrace me?
Oh, won’t you embrace me?
Oh, won’t you embrace me?
Won’t you embrace me?

I figure there’s time later on to move along
From this there is time enough of it for right or wrong
I figure there’s time so go easy on me
And let me stay here a while, stay here awhile

Oh wind, won’t you take me up to the sky
I can get a good look down at this life of mine
River, won’t you take me out into the sea
I can get a good look back at the land that grounds me
The land that grounds me, land that grounds me, me
Land that grounds me, me

-Greg Laswell

New to This.

Sun, 28 Nov 2010 15:29:00 -0500

Attempting to start a Tumblr and keep at it. I’ve been wanting to write for a while now…but never got to it.

…

I guess half of me was scared that I couldn’t be as creative as all the posts that I’ve seen, but then again what is the point of writing on a blog? It’s to post thoughts…and that is enough reason for me.

Over and Out.